The Truth...

 


Today I'm going to share one of my experiences which I've never disclosed to anyone. This has to be the most dark side of my life. I'm a blogger, infact and I was living quite a normal life like everyone lives. Blog is a kind of my personal diary which is publicly accessible to everyone. Therefore, I'd like to share the following experience with you.



As a blogger I might appear to everybody as a happy-go-lucky normal person but that was not the case. I've recently come out from a very deep dark situation full of negativity, arrogance, hopelessness, depression and even a deathly experience.

To begin with, I'd like to state that I have a boyfriend... What? Not something new isn't it??? No, In my case it was completely different. I had a boyfriend whose name I can't disclose. The difference in my case was that I never saw him, only text messages only calls... He lived miles apart and so on. But inspite of this I scored a good result of 91% in my class 12th. 

My parents got to know about my boyfriend eventually. They disliked him from the beginning and wanted us to break apart. Never ever they allowed us to meet and as a result I suffered great depression and struggled to pass my class 12th. Uncountable fights and disasters happened between me and my parents. 

The relationship gap between me and my parents widened. We fought daily, and to tell you I even hit my parents, my sister, I called the police, threatened my parents, and I attempted to commit suicide. I ruined my class 10th and 12th certificates and other important documents.... Yes, that's how it went... that's how I was.

Dear readers, I'm sorry...

I misused the police service numbers and called on 100, 112 and Delhi commission for women number 181 repeatedly and even disturbed the police. As a result, the police caught me and sent me here, The Institute of Human Behaviour and Allied Sciences (IHBAS) or the mental hospital declaring that I'm a psycho, I'm abnormal and I'm a threat to everyone.

Dear readers, I'm sorry...


From the 13th of October to the 20th of October I was admitted in the mental hospital meant tor mentally abnormal patients and i survived my days here. I was unfortunately undergoing the treatment of a mentally ill patient. I was given bland food, ill atmosphere and disallowed me to move out of my bed. How much i suffered and cried only I know. I admit that I was arrogant and aggressive, I beat my parents and sister hard, I disobeyed them, I harrased them.

Dear readers, I'm sorry...


After being admitted here in IHBAS alone without my parents I realized that we are nothing as we think of ourselves. We are nothing without our parents. Parents are our live givers, our God and we are not even a penny without them. I disregarded and harrased my parents so brutally that even if I ask for an apology to God even for a thousand times, I won't be forgiven.

Dear readers, I'm sorry...

Now my treatment from the mental hospital is over and I'm full with positivity and devotion towards my parents, towards God. I'm not abnormal anymore, I'm not aggressive anymore and I promise to obey my elders and therefore fulfil the sole purpose of being a good citizen as I'm a major now. I'll pay full attention to what my parents want from me and lead a successful life completing my higher education.

Dear readers I even apologize to you for not disclosing to you my matter and being such a disrespectful person... I promise you that I'll abide by all the laws and norms of the society and be a good citizen. I'd be a good blogger too and promise not to display any kind of negative impact here. Dear readers, thanks for your valuable time...

Now I hereby declare that I will try to lead a new life and reconcile everything and conclude this experience with the following saying...

"Luck is not in your hands, but decision is in your hands. Your decision can make luck but luck can't make your decision."

_Ambareen Anwar




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  1. Those who realize their mistakes and never commit again , are supposed to be great.
    Very Good

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  2. You have gone through a tough phase of life may God give you and your family strength to overcome it.

    But your courage needs to be applauded as you could accept it, took the responsibility of such behaviour and apologised for it publicly 👏👏👏

    It seems you have learnt lot of lessons from it, so it should be treated just as an experience of teenage which has helped you in growing.

    Since you have shared it publicly it would surely be a lesson for the growing youngsters.

    Wish you a very good luck! May you and your family have a happy life ahead 👍

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    1. My appreciation is for Arjumand who has very beautifully written the comments.
      Her every sentence and paragraph has weight and is appreciable.

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  4. Life is tough and it gives various options to shape up our life and it is up to us what we choose from it.. There is a fine line of difference between love and infatuation, difficult to judge.. When u are in relationship everything looks different.. Right become wrong and wrong become right..think wisely and decide..
    My 2 points

    - no one love you more than your parents
    - life is long and 12th is not age of serious relationship.. It is to enjoy..

    Think and act..

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  5. You have gone through a tough phase of life. May God give you and your family strength to overcome it!

    But your courage needs to be applauded as you accepted it, took the responsibility and apologised publicly 👏👏👏

    Looks like you have learnt a lot from this incident so it can be treated just as an experience of teenage which helped you in growing.

    Since you have shared the incident it would be a lesson for the growing youngsters.

    Wish you a very good luck. May you have a happy life ahead 👍

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  6. You have gone through a tough phase of life. May God give you and your family strength to overcome it!

    But your courage needs to be applauded as you accepted it, took the responsibility and apologised publicly 👏👏👏

    Looks like you have learnt a lot from this incident so it can be treated just as an experience of teenage which helped you in growing.

    Since you have shared the incident it would be a lesson for the growing youngsters.

    Wish you a very good luck. May you have a happy life ahead 👍

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  7. You have gone through a tough phase of life. May God give you and your family strength to overcome it! But your courage needs to be applauded as you accepted it, took the responsibility and apologised publicly 👏👏👏

    Looks like you have learnt a lot from this incident so it can be treated just as an experience of teenage which helped you in growing. Since you have shared the incident it would be a lesson for the growing youngsters.

    Wish you a very good luck. May you have a happy life ahead 👍

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  8. You have gone through a tough phase of life. May God give you and your family strength to overcome it! But your courage needs to be applauded as you accepted it, took the responsibility and apologised publicly 👏👏👏

    Looks like you have learnt a lot from this incident so it can be treated just as an experience of teenage which helped you in growing. Since you have shared the incident it would be a lesson for the growing youngsters.

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  9. May God give you and your family strength to overcome it! But your courage needs to be applauded as you accepted it, took the responsibility and apologised publicly 👏👏👏

    Looks like you have learnt a lot from this incident so it can be treated just as an experience of teenage which helped you in growing. Since you have shared the incident it would be a lesson for the growing youngsters.

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  10. Your courage needs to be applauded as you accepted it, took the responsibility and apologised publicly 👏👏👏

    Looks like you have learnt a lot from this incident so it can be treated just as an experience of teenage which helped you in growing. Since you have shared the incident it would be a lesson for the growing youngsters.

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  11. Your courage needs to be applauded as you accepted it, took the responsibility and apologised publicly.

    Looks like you have learnt a lot from this incident so it can be treated just as an experience of teenage which helped you in growing. Since you have shared the incident it would be a lesson for the growing youngsters.

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  12. Your courage needs to be applauded as you accepted it, took the responsibility and apologised publicly.

    Looks like you have learnt a lot from this incident so it can be treated just as an experience of teenage which helped you in growing.

    Good Luck 👍

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  13. Your courage needs to be applauded as you accepted it, took the responsibility and apologised publicly. Looks like you have learnt a lot from this incident so it can be treated just as an experience of teenage which helped you in growing.

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  14. Your courage needs to be applauded as you accepted it, took the responsibility and apologised publicly.

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  15. Your courage needs to be applauded as you accepted it, took the responsibility and apologised publicly.

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  16. Your courage needs to be applauded as you accepted it, took the responsibility and apologised publicly.

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  17. Your courage needs to be applauded as you accepted it, took the responsibility and apologised publicly.

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  18. It's remarkable to all those young chap who ignoring their parents
    *God bless you*

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  19. It takes a lot of courage to accept our mistakes and you have proved that you aspire to be a good human being by accepting it with all honesty.

    Forget the bitter past and turn the learnings into opportunity to improve your relationship and sharpen your career with everyone's blessings.

    This a a life lesson for teenagers, Beaware of strangers and stalkers on Social Media. Too much emotional bonding with strangers may ruin your career and peaceful life.

    May God give you strength to face challenges in life with peaceful mind, patience & prayers.

    Wishing you a very happy and successful life ahead!!!

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